My Cursed Kingdom
This is my kingdom, i am the slave.

May
09
  • “Honey come here quick! Its time for us to quit our jobs and buy a beach house and spend the rest of our days soaking up the sun! I’m the 1,23,4567th lucky person to visit this site and I just won a million dollars!”

  • “Hmm…where do I check my mail again? I guess it was…www.hotmale.com…*click* OH MY GOD!”

  • “Dang it! This internet thing is sure mind boggling…how in the world did they ever know I need Viagra?”

  • “This nice young lady keeps mailing me to chat with her on the webcam. She’s such a darling”

  • “I hate reading the news online! I can’t even take the monitor to the toilet with me!”

  • “I’m old but I’m not stupid! Don’t tell me I can buy my grocery while sitting infront of this machine!”

  • “Carla come quick! Do you remember the e-mail addresses of all our friends? I need to forward this awful awful e-mail to atleast 20 people or something bad will happen to me! Oh god! What did I do to deserve this?!”

May
07

5000 hits and counting.

1000 hits since April 24 2008

May
03

In Flames,Mike Portnoy,Silverchair,Bush, Spiderman,Black and white,Insomnium,Fight club,Labradors,X-men,Entourage,Drums,Metallica,Simpsons,Batman,Ironman,Transformers

May
02

Jumping; I came across this concept when I watched the movie called “Jumper”. In simpler words, jumping has always been known as teleporting, a really remarkable ability to have. Teleportation is defined in Wikipedia as:

Teleportation is the movement of objects from one place to another, more or less instantaneously, without traveling through space.”

What if we could actually teleport? What if we can be in one place one second and another place in the other? But what if this ability comes with a price that makes this ability almost useless? Would we still use this power if it came with any of the following back draws?:

                      1. You can jump(teleport), but only to a place in between a crowd of people and your clothes have to stay behind.
                      2. You can jump, but everytime you do, your penis grows 2 centimeters shorter.
                      3. You can jump, but only along with transformation into another form; be it an animal or be it a pile of dung.
                      4. You can jump, but with the loss of voluntary control over yourself for the next five minutes which probably would lead to incontinence of urine and feces.
                      5. You can jump, but first you have to find someone else with the same ability who is willing to exchange places with you.
                      6. You can jump, but everytime you do, you age 5 years.
                      7. You can jump, but first you have to count from 1 to 100,000 in one go.
                      8. You can jump, but with the price of an exponential increase in your body hair.
                      9. You can jump, but you have the choice of either a raft at sea, the north pole or an underground coal mine.
                      10. You can jump, but you cannot come back.

                      Apr
                      28

                      Ah! These lights. I just love them. I just love how they change from red to blue to green to red again. I love how the lights literally dance infront of my eyes. Its weird how this spectacle never comes to life when im at ground level or when I’m actually having a good day, I always witness this amazing show when im either having one of my worst days or when im here at this roof top.

                      There is no place else I’d rather be than here right now. My sanctuary. I always feel so alive and carefree when im here, the rest of the world can just go to hell. The lights change shape and start to dance all around me. Like an eager little boy, I jump up and clap my hands. Im mesmerized by this grandeur. I laugh out in appreciation. I don’t care; I know there is no one around to look at me, or to share this exhibition with me. My arm hurts and I look at it to find a bruise over my forearm. I don’t remember how it got there. I ignore it. The lights will heal it in due time, im sure.

                      The glitter and the fuzziness are too fascinating. It leaves my presence and moves away from me, hovering over the ledge. I know what I have to do, follow it. This feeling is eternal, its here to stay. I let myself loose. I follow the lights off the roof. They carry me in the air. I’ve never felt better. Im flying with the lights as they gently bring me to the ground a few hundred feet below. The impact is not what I was expecting. I hit the sidewalk hard and my jaw dislocates, my ribs are pushed into my chest, my arm is broken and my skull splits into two.

                      LSD mixed with heroine makes one hell of a drug.

                      Apr
                      24

                      4000 hits and counting.

                      1000 hits since Jan 05 2008.

                      Apr
                      23

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                      CHAPTER ONE: THE SLAUGHTER

                      1485

                      The Zangerberths and the Hilanders were at war again. The seventh in a series of many, if ones memory served him right. They say the deadliest battles in history had been fought between the two sides. Blood baths. After a conquest, no sign of a whole village would be left, burnt to the ground. Another page ripped out of history. The village elder would be hung by the feet with a cut in the neck to run him dry of his blood. Lesson be learnt. Wombs cut out of women as they screamed in agony so they could not conceive their own kind again. Noone knew mercy, noone knew sympathy; it was an age old rivalry that would come to an end once the other side was wiped off from the face of the earth. Thousands washed the battle grounds with their blood over the years, but an end to the war was far from near.

                      After the small village of Tuhymon, the one furthest up the mountains, was demolished by the Zangerberths, only two survived. Azarel and his youngest grandson, Zas were fortunate enough to be out at the distance, but yet unfortunate enough to witness their village burn with their own eyes. Zas only 2 at that time cried for his mother, but Azarel covered his mouth with his hand, and ran as far and as fast as his old legs could take him. Out of breath and out of strength, he stopped almost at the foot of the mountain. He looked back just to see the smoke rising up from the top of the hill. His eyes filled with tears as the thought of his family being slaughtered by his sworn enemies crossed his mind. He was helpless. All that he was left with now was his heart filled with revenge and an orphan grandson.

                      Several days passed. Night fell. Azarel rarely dropped his guard. But that night, he did. As the two of them slept unaware under the oak tree, they were spotted by a group of Zangerberth guards as they rode past them. Azarel sat up with a startle as the hoofs hit the ground and without looking back to his death, he grabbed his child by the arm and started running like the devil was after him for vengeance. It was too late. It was impossible for him to outrun the guards. They caught up to him in no time and he was kicked down to the ground. Zas fell down and started to cry. It was the end of the road for the last Tuhymon Hilander survivors.

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                      CHAPTER TWO: THE HILANDER WHO LED TO VICTORY

                      He had cried; for days. He had cried till his eyes were red and then he cried some more. He did not know how he managed to overcome the guard and claim his sword, he did not know how he managed to counter the remaining three guards and cut the head of two of them with single lashes and pierce the chest of the fourth one before he slaughtered the first one with his own sword, but he did know that he was too late. Out of the only two things left in his life, he had witnessed one of them die. As he was held down by two of the guards, he witnessed his youngest grandchild being decapitated. They laughed with no sympathy. “Another bastard Hilander who won’t live to raise a sword against us” one of them laughed as he spoke to the others. Azarel struggled and shouted but was of no use. He was too late to win in his struggle. He held the child in his arms as he wept. He dug him a small grave. He could not contain his hatred. It was too much for him. He had sworn to kill every last one of the Zangerberths before he passed on to the next life.

                      He rode hundreds of miles before he reached Southastern, the homeland of the Hilanders. He made his way to the palace, almost out of life. It took him several days to recover. He could not comprehend how many days, or weeks it had taken him to get to Southastern. When he was strong enough to walk on his feet, he was presented before the king. Azarel narrated the unfortunate events he had witnessed and requested to be put in the army of the king. His wish was granted.

                      1498

                      His vengeance was strong as iron. His services were remarkable. It wasn’t long before he was made advisor to the king and the next to be. Another vicious battle. This time the Zangerberths attacking Southastern. The Hilanders proved victorious but at the price of their vigilant king. It was a moment of sorrow for the whole country. But had it not been the immaculate guidance of the king’s trusty advisor, there was a fair chance the Hilanders would have lost their sovereignty along with their king in that battle. Unanimously Azarel was crowned the king of Southastern.

                      History wrote itself. Hilanders under the exemplary leadership of their new king defeated the Zangerberths once too often to conquer Northasten, the homeland of the Zangerberths. It was a moment of pride, a moment Azarel had waited a lifetime for. It was the moment he had sworn about. Drenched in Zangerberth blood, with little strength in his body and his heart content, he climbed up on the previously Zangerberth owned fort and looked down as his army finished off the remaining survivors in the battlefield. It was the moment of truth. All he could see was the red that covered the ground and the soldiers. The stench of blood made him feel alive. He held his sword in one hand and the head of the Zangerberth king in the other and let out a roar of victory. His roar was matched by hundreds of his men. He had never heard a sound so sweet in his life. “This is for you Zas” he said to himself.

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                      CHAPTER TWO: THE ZANGERBERTH WHO LED TO VICTORY

                      He stood there crying. The last image he remembered was his grandfather being decapitated by the soldiers. “Let the young bastard live, he won’t survive the wolves even one day. I wish him a much more torturous death than from the blow of my steel” the soldier said as he kicked Zas to the ground and rode away in the forest. For the first time in his life he was alone. Like the innocent child that he was, he started walking deeper into the forest, crying helplessly. Three days later a young woman found a child sleeping under a bush, bruised and limp, only a necklace hung around his neck that read “Zas”. She brought the child home and showed him to her husband. Soon the news of the child spread throughout the village and everyone came to see him. “Poor child, one can only wonder how long he was in the forest” “He looks like the devil’s child, throw him away!” “He looks like one of us.”

                      The woman did not pay much attention to the villagers’ thoughts and adopted the child to join her family of five. It took several days before the child was of health again. The child was raised and educated in the village of Kosanvy. He was a sharp boy, eager to learn. He grew up to be a strong young man. He was never told the truth about his entrance into his new family; “For the best of him” his father would always say to his wife. His father had taught him well; how to fight, how to survive. The skills he was much aware of being an ex-soldier in the army of the king, the king of Northastern.

                      Throughout his childhood he was fed stories about the battles between the Hilanders and the Zangerberths, many times stories twisted and exaggerated to fit their own requirement. As he grew older, he grew a lust for the battles aswell, battles against the Hilanders so one day he could also be remembered along with the other brave Zangerberth soldiers. When he was of age, he told his father that he was leaving Kosanvy for Northastern to join the army of the king. That was a proud day for his father. He traveled many a mile to reach Northastern. He soon recruited in the army and like his father had taught him, he excelled quick. He was promoted on a regular basis, battle after battle, lives after lives. Soon he was the General to the King of Northastern. It was written in history that General Zas was one of the most successful leaders of his time. He had led the king’s army many a times against the Hilanders. But he was not satisfied. To be not just amongst the best soldiers, but to be the best, he had to do more than just win battles; he had to win the war.

                      1498

                      An extensive and strategic war plan was made and presented to the king. The king approved highly of it and gave General Zas all that he asked for. Well equipped and longing for glory in their hearts, the soldiers led by General Zas marched out of Northastern; headed to Southastern. It took them several weeks before they finally reached their destination. It was exactly what they had hoped for. Noone in the whole of Southastern had ever dreamt that the Zangerberths could actually march with their army directly to the homeland of the Hilanders hoping to conquer it. But it soon became a reality as the Zangerberths engulfed the city from all four corners, narrowing in on their enemies like a flock of eagles diving for their preys. It was a deadly battle. Probably the worst in the history of the Hilander-Zangerberth battles. The city was in chaos. Women ran for their children, men ran for cover; everyone knew they wouldn’t live to see the light of another day. It was not long before the soldiers were ankle deep in thick red blood. As steel ate steel, a stab, a blow, a personal victory; slowly but surely the Zangerberth strategy started to prove fruitful. As night fell, a handful of Hilander soldiers still breathed, down on their knees and begging for mercy. Zas made his way to the top of the fortress and looked down towards the battlefield. It was hard to make out who was alive and who wasn’t as everything hid behind a red veil. He had made his king proud, and most of all, he had made his father proud. There was no question that that day the world had seen the greatest victory there was ever to be. With a sword in one hand and the head of the Southastern king in the other, he let out a roar of victory which was matched by his fellow soldiers. It was the sweetest sound he had ever heard. “I was born a Zangerberth and I will die a Zangerberth!” he shouted as his army raised their swords in appraisal.

                      Apr
                      18

                      He stands by the window. The water strikes the pane like pellets being thrown from the air. The rain making it impossible to see outside, but he can imagine everything across the window, drenched. He makes his way to the center of the hall that has no boundaries, no end. In the center he seats himself infront of a grand piano. The woodwork on it shines in the dim light like it has never been used before. But it is misleading. He starts to press the keys softly, playing the tune he has played over and over and over again. The tune that sinks his heart unimaginably. The tune that makes him regret times he would give anything to forget.

                      He presses one last key with all the emotions in his body as his mind starts to run. Aimlessly. Uncontrollably. He gets up and throws the stool across the floor. It makes a deafening sound but it is inaudible because of the storm outside. He slumps to the ground and covers his face.

                      “When it rains, it pours like hell!”

                      He screams at the top of his lungs. The scream is unstoppable, it knows no boundaries, and it travels in all directions, breaking the walls down. Bit by bit the room crumbles around him. The chandelier crashes on top of the piano, smashing into a thousand pieces. Each piece crying out with the pain felt inside him. Soon he is left standing in the open. He sees the lightning far off. Every flicker makes him even more uneasy.

                      Before he knows it, he is drenched himself. The pouring rain is impossible to overcome. He finds it hard even to keep his eyes open. In a rush of emotions, as the anger flows through his body, he cannot contain it. He cannot stop it, he cannot control it. He rips off his attire as he falls to the ground for the last time. He closes his eyes. It is what he dreaded, it is what he had been waiting for, and it is but the gale.

                      He opens his eyes and finds himself sitting on the floor in the hall by the piano. Everything in its place like the day they were created.

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                      Inspired from and interpretation of the song “The Gale” by Insomnium. Feel it.

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                      Apr
                      16

                      I filled two ice trays from the tap and walked towards the refrigerator. It’s not that easy to concentrate on both the trays when they are filled to the top. This realization was made clearer as a slight miss step made me spill some water on to the floor, following me for a few steps like a trail to the mistake maker. “Dang it” I said as I carefully replaced both the trays inside the freezer. I walked back to the scene of the accident and bent down to look at the spilt water on the floor. The water gleamed in the sunlight. I tried to think if the water would be sad that it had fallen down or would it be joyful that it escaped its captivity.

                      As I examined the water on the floor I realized that I had thought about the exact same thing not long ago. A little pressure on my memory revealed that only one day ago when I was refilling the exact same trays, I had spilt some water on the floor then too. Even that day I knew I was taking a risk, but for some reason I had thought that I could avoid it. When I came to realize it, I had done the exact same thing several times in the past too, every time making the same mistake.

                      I seated myself on the floor. I had locked my car keys in the car that morning. I could remember atleast 5 other occasions when I had done the same thing. Earlier that morning I was stuck in traffic for a whole hour taking a particular route even though I knew taking it would be a gamble, from previous experience I guess, but I had still opted for that road. Was I just forgetful or was I just very very predictable? I looked at my watch and realized that I had forgotten to do something I had been forgetting for days now.

                      Same mistakes, over and over and over again. Do I ever learn from them? Will I ever make it to the next level in life or will I just be consumed by the repetition of the same mistakes? Am I just too over confident thinking I don’t need to learn from life? Will I break the cycle before it’s too late? I took a rag and wiped the floor clean. No more spilt water, no more mistake.

                      Mar
                      22

                      Dawn was the only thing there was to look forward to. The light that shone into his cell was the only ray of hope he had of another life, of another chance of freedom, of getting out from that four walled captivity. But with each passing day, even this hope was getting devoured by the darkness, the darkness that filled that room that engulfed him; his eternal shrine. The thought of rotting there and being consumed by the dungeon rats crossed his mind many a time. He held strongly to the bars of the window which was big enough to fit half his head through. It was much higher than he could reach easily. He had to pull himself up to take a peak out of it; though all there was to see was another wall. Another wall of another cell for another man who for all he knew might already be dead and forgotten. But his arms were weak, they were getting weaker. Soon he won’t even be able to pull himself up. That will be the time when his hope would die for good; and with it, his soul.

                      The moss on the rusted iron bars made his hands slip. He felt like he was being pushed away on purpose from the one thing that had kept him going so far. He felt the walls made of huge stone blocks move in by the day. The nights were what he feared the most; when he was left alone face to face with darkness. Surely and inevitably he was surrendering to insanity. The stench of dead rodents and growing algae made him noxious. He had lost all sense of time. He did not remember when was the last time he actually stood up on his feet. He did not know if he could take it much longer. He wished for death. He wished for redemption. He wished for just one day out of his eternal captivity.